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The Water's Edge
My
name is Rice. My parents were big on India and China. I'm lucky
I'm not called Lapsang Souchong.
My name is Esther. My great-grandmother
was into the Old Testament. Lucky I'm not called Nebuchadnezzar.
My name is Beatrice. I never knew
my father. He went swimming when the waves were fierce and drowned
when I was just a month old.
My name is Meredith. I am secretly
in love with Beatrice all the way through, but you have to wait
till near the end for the kiss.
My name is Persephone. I'm a mythological
figure. Don't forget. Margaret and Grace are also in the book, but
they die on pages 238 and 244 and don't have time to introduce themselves.
There are lots of other characters (you'll meet them as we go along)
but Rice and I are the only ones who are on the beach, telling the
story.
Rice
My name is Rice. Autumn is coming,
although it was warm today. The sea is calm and its white ruffles
are edging their way up the sand and back. I've just driven down
from London where I live. I came straight from the gallery because
Meredith, Beatrice and Esther are organising a birthday party for
me.
'We're organising a party,' said Beatrice on the phone a few weeks
ago.
'It's the opening of my exhibition the afternoon before, so I can't
drive down till the evening,' I said, looking in my diary. (Now
I am a famous photographer, I have to write my appointments down.
) 'Which one is this?'
'Buildings and Beaches.'
'Get here before eleven,' said Beatrice. 'I don't like to disturb
the guests.'
Some important people, whose names I have forgotten, were at the
opening of my exhibition this afternoon, amongst the canapés
and the strawberries and champagne and orange juice. After smiling
at them and shaking hands, I took some pictures of them all, so
that I could think about it later. Through the viewfinder I noticed
a tall woman in a thin green dress with blonde hair and a look in
her eyes like something had happened to her that she had to remember
before everything she said. I focused my lens on her, but she noticed
and waved a hand to stop me.
'I don't like having my picture taken,' she said. She was standing
in front of a photo entitled The Photographer as a Child. It was
a blurred picture of me, aged eight, with my mother. The bottom
right-hand corner was brown, like someone had held a lit match underneath
until it curled. 'My mother and me outside the Houses of Parliament,
4 May 1979,' I had written for the caption. The day Margaret Thatcher
became Prime Minister. I remember my mother saying something about
it being important that we went and stood outside the Houses of
Parliament the day after the first woman Prime Minister was elected.
'I'm sorry,' I said to the woman in the green dress, 'I should have
asked.'
Next to the Houses of Parliament picture was one called Esther's
Birthday, May 1989. The strange woman in the green dress turned
to look at it and said, 'Just before the fire.'
'Yes,' I said, and then, 'How did you know about that?'
But she didn't answer, she was looking at a picture of Beatrice,
taken by the thirteen-year-old me, a few weeks after I arrived there.
I had called this one Beatrice in the Hotel Kitchen, 1984. I had
looked at these pictures thousands of times before, but seeing them
like this, through the eyes of the young woman, it was as if someone
else had taken them. She took me by the hand and told me she had
visited the Water's Edge Hotel for over sixty years because it had
been so convenient for her and that she thought the photos were
lovely. I knew then that she must be a nutcase. She looked no more
than eighteen.
'This is just some stuff I took as a child,' I said. 'The main exhibition
is through there.'
But she didn't seem interested. She leant even closer and whispered
in my ear, 'I came up for your exhibition but I've got to go back
tonight. Any chance of a lift?' I looked from the picture of Beatrice
to the woman standing next to me.
'Go back where?' I said, but then the manager of the gallery came
up to introduce someone from. Channel Four who was making a documentary
about young artists. They manoeuvred their way in front of the woman
in the green dress and she folded back like she was drowning into
the crowd of people waiting by the buffet for summer pudding, and
I couldn't see her any more.
'Rice, I'd like you to meet...' said the manager of the gallery.
'Who was that?' I said, looking over his shoulder. 'What? I don't
know. No one important.'
At about five o'clock, I disentangled myself from the important
people, grabbed my coat and a handful of cream cheese and chive
sandwiches and went to find my car. I sat in the driver's seat,
eating the sandwiches and thinking about the strange woman and the
man from Channel Four. Then I started up the engine. It was raining
that drizzly kind of rain that you only get in London and I had
my windscreen wipers on, and the orange streetlights were blinking
into life in the twilight and making my eyes dance, so I almost
didn't see the woman in the green dress without a coat, trying to
hitch a lift. She was standing in the middle of the road with her
arms outstretched and cars were beeping their horns and whizzing
past on either side of her. I stopped and she ran round to the passenger
door and got in.
'I thought you'd gone without me,' she said, and smiled a smile
that made her light up like she was immortal or something.
'My name is Delphinia,' she said, which I thought was an unusual
name.
'Where are you going?' I said, hoping she wasn't really mad.
'The same place as you,' she said, putting on her seat belt and
switching on the radio. I needn't have worried. She was a good passenger.
On the way she entertained me with stories about freak weather conditions
and then, when we had been going for about an hour and it was properly
dark, she told me about the time she'd been chambermaid in a hotel.
'I used to work at the Water's Edge Hotel when I lived there,' I
said, hoping for an explanation of what she had said at the gallery,
but she didn't say anything. 'Didn't you mention that you'd stayed
there?' I pressed her for an answer but she seemed to have lost
interest again and was looking out of the window, watching the wet
night shapes darting by. 'Maybe I misheard you,' I said.
For the rest of the journey we were silent, but it wasn't long before
a sign by the roadside was welcoming us to Bournemouth.
'Where do you want to be dropped? '
'Anywhere on the beach is fine.'
'OK,' I said. It was an unusual request, seeing as it was still
raining and it was nearly nine o'clock. 'Anywhere?'
'Yes,' and she smiled at me. I drove down to the part of the beach
I liked the most and she looked at me and smiled like I had read
her mind and this was exactly the place she wanted to get out. I
parked my car by the pier and walked on to the sand. It was quite
dark when we got here. It's good to breathe in the taste of salt
and sand after being in London. I look up at the cliff, which runs
in a shallow curve from the beach, yellow and green in the daytime,
to where the old hotel used to be, and at the steps that lead from
the beach to an empty space. If I half close my eyes I can see the
dark outline of the old hotel standing like a proud ghost at the
top of the cliff. The woman in the green dress is still sitting
a little way along the sand looking out to sea, like she's waiting
for something to happen. I am still standing next to the pier, wondering
whether to leave her there in the rain. I'm looking up at the space
where the old hotel used to be and remembering. The story starts
sixteen years ago in March 1984. I was thirteen.
My name is Persephone, only every
year I change my name to something different. Without me there would
be no winter, no harvest, no bonfires, no falling leaves, no ice
ponds, no death and rebirth. There is Rice, looking up at the ghost
hotel, her feet on the sand. I'm sitting near the sea, on the hard
brown sand, which is wet underneath and packed together tightly.
I'm looking out at the green sea, which is calm tonight, and at
the surface of the salt water, watching for any changes, because
I'm waiting for the gates to Hades to open so that I can return
to the centre of the earth and autumn can begin again. Then the
leaves can turn to precious metal and crumble, fragile as burnt
paper. Apples can turn red and green and fall into the grass that
still smells of summer, and the wheat can be gathered with thick
fertile heads.
I was glad I was able to hitch a lift with Rice to the beach, because
I thought I was running late, although now I'm here nothing is happening,
so I'll have to wait. Rice is standing over there by the pier, wondering
whether to leave me, and she's thinking about 1984, the year she
arrived at the old hotel. I think she's very beautiful (like me).
She's got long dark hair in a plait down her back and she's wearing
a red dress because she's, been at the opening of an exhibition
of her photographs this afternoon. It's her thirtieth birthday tomorrow,
whereas I am as old as the earth.
Each year, I arrive on the beach at Bournemouth, dizzy after my
journey from the underworld. Spring always arrives with me and the
season begins with a flourish of dusters and the coming of crocuses.
I stay in Bournemouth from March till September. In the autumn,
I wait for a sign that marks the start - usually there's a certain
tree that turns first, or a dead sheep in a field - and then I return
to Hades once more. What happens on the other side of the world
where winter and summer are different? They have their own myths
so they don't need me. There are no ceremonies these days. Demeter,
my mother, has given up mourning. She just makes sure it's cold
enough to keep the glove-makers happy.
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